Reflections for a New Year

A while ago, I posted on my Twitter for the hashtag #10yearsago I, and it dawned on me that 10 years ago was a very different time.

10 years ago I would have been 13, and in about the 8th grade. I can honestly say I wouldn't want to go back to the way I was then. Youthful ignorance aside, I was around 230 pounds then. I remember struggling to run for even a minute in the ever humiliating gym fitness classes. I remember consuming large amounts of junk food daily for no particular reason, and being puzzled by people who didn't. Although it wasn't all bad. I had a good collection of friends, my grades were high.

Now, I can happily say that my weight now sits at around 180 pounds with potential to drop much lower. Now I can run in 45 minute intervals. Just yesterday I did 30 mins of cardio and 400 sit-ups, and considered that a "slow day". The only reason I stopped was because the tendinitis in my forearms was acting up and the elliptical wasn't helping. Today I'll do some qi gong before I head out on an adventure. Junk food now isn't pop, chips, or the like. I've given those things up. Junk food now is considered a deep fried sushi, a hamburger or even pork sometimes.

My friends are still very good, although now that I think about it, very few from that time are still around. My BFF is still here, but that's expected (I think after the 17 year mark, neither of us is going anywhere :) ). Several people I haven't spoken to in many years, but not because of any particular falling out, we just moved on to different things. I've had the opportunity to welcome many other very important people into my life since then as well.

School now is martial arts. Although I haven't been in this school for as long as I would like, I have fallen in love with it, and intend not to leave it. Everyday I push myself to my limits and learn something new. Everyday I get a little bit better. Everyday I get a new lesson for life.

Here are the list of things I would like to get accomplished in 2010:

1. Intensify my training & lose the last 30 pounds.
   This will mean getting rid of the lazy voice in my head that tells me I can't do something. I'm past the point now where it matters that I listen to that voice. Sifu is talking about putting me in tournaments, so training will have to intensify to make that a reality. Also, since I've purchased Ladies Only Kickboxing Lessons for my Heather, that means we will get to train more Muay Thai!


2. Make it to 1000 sit ups per day.
   My goal is to be able to do as many sit ups per day as my Sifu did when he was my age. He did 10 sets of 10 everyday, and I am going to do that many too.


3. Stop thinking.
   I tend to miss acting on things lately because I just think about them way too much. Even simple things like standing up for someone when someone else makes a rude comment. I'll sit and think and analyze when I should have just said "Hey guy, shut up.". What's the worst that could happen anyway?


4. Be more sociable.
   I'm pretty sure that this was a carry-over from last year. Anyway, some progress has been made with this at least. It kinda ties in with the "Stop thinking" thing. I will usually sit and worry about what people will say if I open my mouth, so I'll just clam up and avoid everything. This time, we won't think. Again, what's the worst that could happen?


5. Just Be.
   I've always had very little confidence in myself or what I do. I never give myself any credit. As I learned from one of my Tweeps' blog, I'm a very harsh critic for myself and I tend not to see the steps that I take to be victories for myself at all when they are. I need to remember that I am a person, that I am not perfect, but that I am still wonderful. I need to train myself to be my loudest cheerleader.